Dear future girlfriend #22
The morning and the nights are starting to get colder, it’s time to say goodbye to what hopefully was my last summer without you. Winter is on its way and your warmth will be very much appreciated.
Dear future girlfriend #14
Forgive me for the lack of letters, I’m just busy trying to find you, that’s all. Shortening the time between now and the future that is you. Trying to bring that day, where the rain disappears with the clouds and everything is perfect in the world, closer. Bad days are going to be so much easier with you and good days are going to be days I’ll never forget.
A little embarrassing, but I literally have a smile on my face writing these, imagining you and I reading them, the smile (I hope) on your face… it makes me happy. I hope I bring as much happiness to your life as you do to mine, as you already do now… I haven’t met you and you’re already making me smile.
I had Tumblr in 2010, 2011 can only get better with you.
I have a good feeling about it.
Dear future girlfriend #13
I just realized it has been 2 weeks since I last wrote to you. That’s what you get for taking forever to get here!
Remember our first date? I’m looking forward to it. I hope it went well… I guess I must have done something right. I bet I said and did some corny things, ha… I did mean them though, of course. It would be pretty funny if it went quite bad and I just caused an awkward silence in the future, I’m sure a lot of what I say in these posts will make for some awkward reading.
Exciting times ahead.
So here it is, my story.
I met this girl through my cousin, who she is a really good friend of, about 3 years ago. At the time I just thought, another girl with a pretty face, no big deal. Eventually I got to find out she was a lot more than that, a lot more. We used to hang out with the same group of people for a long time, that’s when I realized how amazing a person she is. I fell for her, big time.
I never put myself out there to be hurt, I know it’s stupid because the reward would be incredible, but I just can’t do it. I can’t express my feelings to someone who could easily crush (lol pun) them. So I avoided her as much as I could. I avoided what I felt for her and did everything I could to pretend those feelings didn’t exist. I even dated a girl for about 7 months, she knew about my crush before we dated, not entirely, but she knew and I had no intention of ever doing anything about my crush, still don’t.
I saw her every now and then during the time I was dating and after, we don’t live too close so it wasn’t very often that I saw her. I just acted normal, still do. Never show it. She wouldn’t have a clue, I don’t think. Every time I see her I fight what I feel, I really do. I don’t want to have these feelings for her; I don’t want to be that vulnerable. It’s seriously a scary feeling to have, it’s like you’re powerless. Maybe that’s what love is… I just can’t let myself become that weak.
For the past year she’s befriended my sister and just recently her dad and mine became good friends after traveling together – yah small world. My sister is in love with her, she keeps telling me how amazing she is, oh I know. I know. She really is. Doesn’t have a bad word to say about anyone, she’s just a beautiful person.
It just seems like it’d be perfect, like it’s meant to be. We’re so alike. But I don’t know. I don’t think she’s ever dated; she’s not the type, so it makes things even harder. That’s why it’s much easier when I don’t think about it and let things play out like they’re meant to without me doing anything.
Anywho… back to pretending these feelings don’t exist, but secretly hoping she’s the future girlfriend who ends up reading all this.