Dear future girlfriend #31

I’m sorry; I have this ‘expectation disease’ where everything in my head is so far from reality, or never quite close enough. I’m sure I would have told you right from the start what I expected from us; and I know it’s not wise to have such expectations from the first time we met and especially right now. I have all these letters full of what I expect you to be like based solely on what I know about myself at that time.

But I’d like to think I know what I want; whether or not I get it remains a mystery, but if you’re reading this, then I got it - this isn’t something I’m going to just settle for.

It’s real. You’re real.