Dear future girlfriend #49
It has been so long since I last wrote to you, I’ve been busy trying to become the person that you will eventually foolishly fall for.
In the past I may have not been ready, but I feel like all I want to do right now is meet my best friend, the person who will always be there for me. The person who will always make me laugh; make me realize that life is not as serious as they make it out to be - it’s much more fun than that.
Life is good; and for the first time in a long while, I can say that I feel good and mean it.
But I want to say life is great. So hurry up, punk.
Dear future girlfriend #47
Another year passes without you, another one arrives holding some hope.
I’m finding it very difficult to even imagine finding someone who is utterly and completely perfect for me. Someone who could make me happier than I ever even thought possible; someone who could give me a new reason to breathe, a new passion for life.
Yet, I’m still holding on to the little bit of hope that remains. Because I know when we’re finally sitting there reading these silly letters together; I’ll know everything that I have imagined about you will not even compare to who you truly are.
No matter how low waiting can get, it’s going to be so worth it.
I’m holding on.
Dear future girlfriend #46
Almost another year without a sign of you, but you continue to be my inspiration.
Dear future girlfriend #44
One of the things I look forward to most is the memories we will share. I know our time together is going to be beautiful; and our moments, timeless.
I have had a lot of moments in my life that I look back at and just smile. Ever since I started writing these, I’ve made up moments in my head that don’t exist yet, that aren’t all that clear; but somewhere in the future, I want to look back at moments where I can see us clearly.
So my contract at my current work ends this week and I don’t think I’ll be renewing it. I have an interview for a better company on Thursday and I am extremely nervous.
I just want it to work out, because that would be fantastic.
Dear future girlfriend #41
I know we’re over there in the future having a fantastic time and that’s great, but I kinda need you here right now. So if you would start creeping your way into my life that would also be great.
Goodbyes are the worst.
Even for a little while.
I can’t stand saying goodbye to loved ones; especially when they are traveling alone and overseas. I hate not knowing where they are or how they’re doing, sure I can contact them every now and then, but it’s still tough. I worry way too much; but it’s only because I care that much.
My dad just left for a month tonight for business. He’s going to Japan first, then London… both of which I won’t be worrying about too much, but then he has to go to Iraq for a couple of weeks. That scares me.
My sister goes away for a month next week too, for a silly college trip. I’m constantly worrying about my sister when we’re in the same country, so that one is going to be hard.
This house is going to be dead quiet for a month and a bit. Looking forward to the 1st of May.
I love my family.
Looking for a real job is a lot more stressful than I thought it would be; more depressing actually. Some people literally take months to find a job after graduating; I’ve only been actively looking for a couple of weeks and I’m already cracking.
Real world problems.
Dear future girlfriend #40
I often write to you about how happy you’ve made me; but sometimes I wonder if I’m making you happy.
I wonder if, when you’re reading this, tomorrow never came, would you know how much love and care I have for you? If I haven’t made you smile today, I have failed. If I didn’t make you laugh, I have failed. If you cooked me a horrible meal and I didn’t smile and say it was delicious, I have failed. If I didn’t end an argument with "I’m sorry love, you’re right", I have failed.
Your happiness means the world to me. At the end of every day, I want to know that I have done everything I possibly can to make you happy the way you make me happy.
PS - you’re a great cook.
I want a date.
The most romantically cliche one possible.
I’d pick her up, knock on her door, nervously introduce myself to her parents and struggle to make conversation while I wait for her to get ready. She’d walk into the room, after what seems an eternity, taking my breath away; her dress, so elegant; her hair, so perfect; and her smile, weakening my knees. I’d stumble over my words, trying my best to describe how gorgeous she looks. I’d make a promise to her dad; back before midnight.
The next couple of hours pass like minutes.
First, a candlelit dinner at a fancy seaside restaurant. With a violinist, of course. Followed by a walk on the beach while the sun makes way for the stars. My hand, so closely interlaced with hers, making us feel larger than the world. Everyone else disappears. And when we stop to gaze at the stars, I’ll be gazing at her, with the breeze trying its best to unperfect her perfect hair.
And then it’s almost midnight; I drive her home, walk her to the door, and give her a kiss on the cheek at exactly 11:59 PM.
Dear future girlfriend #39
I love you; I want you; and I need you. But I don’t have you, not yet anyway. But I hold on to the hope that sometime in the future, you’re going to love, want and need me just as much.
When we look back at these letters together, I’m going to know exactly how lucky I am. I hope each one is putting a smile on your face; because at the end, that’s what I do it for.
Dear future girlfriend #38
Pack your bags, because today, we’re doing something crazy; we’re going to the airport and taking the very next flight, wherever it’s going.
PS - Yes, I am serious.
Dear future girlfriend #36
So it was my cousins wedding tonight; I think this is the second cousin of mine to get married since I started writing to you. It was at a beautiful vineyard; the whole thing was just perfect.
I love weddings; and every one I’ve been to, I’ve thought about you. I’m far from ready for marriage, but dammit, I can’t wait to love and actually be loved. I don’t know what it is, maybe because Valentines Day is just around the corner, I don’t know; but I am so, desperately, in need of you.
I just want to take you out and get that feeling where everyone else disappears; and all that’s left is you and me.
This is for you.
This is for every person who says that they’re okay, when in reality, they couldn’t be further away from it. For those who feel different, alone and completely disconnected from the world around them. It’s for those who find it difficult to get out of bed in the morning because they’re tired; tired of being afraid, tired of failure. Those who believe that their existence is pointless. For those who have had their hearts broken; for those who have lost.
Speak up; let people know that you’re not okay. It’s not a sign of weakness, it’s the opposite. Whatever you may be feeling, you can be certain that there are other people who are feeling the same. Make yourself heard. You’re not alone, there are far too many people in the world for you to feel that way; I’ll listen.
Don’t be afraid of being ‘different’; normal has always been a term to refer to things that are ordinary. You are who you are and ultimately, we are all the same. We’ve all just had different stories that have shaped us. No one knows what you have been through; they may have heard, but they never felt. Their judgements are therefore completely unjust.
There’s no denying how difficult life can be; you will almost certainly fail. Many times. But that’s all part of becoming you, making you a better person. Learn from it. Don’t let it discourage you. You’re here for a reason; you are someones reason, you might just not know it yet. Wake up with a smile on your face tomorrow, knowing that one day your existence will make complete sense if it hasn’t already.
Knowing that it gets better.